Where I’ve been lately…

If you’ve been checking in wondering where the heck I’ve been lately, I definitely apologize!   I can’t believe it’s already the end of April and my last post was in early January.  I find it pretty humorous that one of my New Years resolutions was to become a better blogger.  

Well.  I failed.  MISERABLY.

Life has gotten pretty busy lately as I’m essentially working two jobs right now, while trying to catch the creativity bug to start making my jewelry again, and get back into all things beauty!
The bug hasn’t hit me just yet….but getting back into the swing of posting will hopefully help!

Also, in my last post, I mentioned that Maggie had surgery to remove a cancerous tumor.  
Well….it’s quite funny how life decides to throw all these curve balls at you!  
She came through that surgery very well, and we got better than expected results from her pathology results that it was the lowest grade tumor and least deadly cancer.  I was probably one of the happiest people on the planet at that time!

 A few weeks later, I noticed that she was reverse sneezing more frequently, but I just attributed that to the terrible pollen that we have in NC in early March!  Then one night, she started sneezing blood.  I knew this couldn’t be a good thing at all, so the very next day, I took Maggie to the vet and they referred me to a specialist.  Unfortunately, we got the worst news we could get after a very expensive CT scan.  

Maggie has terminal cancer.  

She has a rare form of cancer in her nose, and it has already damaged some of the bone structure in her face.  To say we are distraught is a total understatement.   The vet we were referred to said we could try some medication that will help slow the growth of  the tumor, but the prognosis was still not great.  The only treatment option was radiation, and from the way he described it, it would definitely reduce her quality of life.  Without making that decision in haste, we decided to take her home and enjoy a weekend where we focused solely on her and the things she loves.   We did just that, and after much thought and consideration, we decided to seek a second opinion of a vet oncologist in Charlotte, a doctor that my parents had used on our Doberman Reecie about 11 years ago.  

It’s amazing what a difference in knowledge and exposure to the disease can do for your soul.  After talking to the vet oncologist, we have decided to proceed with radiation for Maggie.  Now…let me tell you…this is not a cheap option, and we have been incredibly blessed to be fortunate enough to afford this.  When I say afford, I mean a credit card with a decent limit to get us through the time until we can save enough to pay it off – I mean, unfortunately, that’s the real world folks!  

So as of today, Maggie is doing fairly well.  She wrapped up her 10 rounds of radiation therapy a little over two weeks ago.   Unfortunately, while she came through the radiation with flying colors, she’s now experiencing some rough side effects.  It’s really hard to see her be in discomfort from something that I personally chose for her.  I honestly don’t think there’s been a day yet that I haven’t questioned myself wondering if I’m only doing this for my own selfish reasons, and if I have her best interest at heart.  I tell myself that I’m doing the right thing, and I hope and pray that I am.  Maggie is my baby.  Nick and I don’t have children yet, and for the past 13 years, Maggie has essentially been by my side nearly 24/7.  Other than the cancer, she’s in exceptional health as even all vets have been in agreement regarding that, so I just can’t give up that easy on her.

I cannot tell you how many people I have come across that think I’m being stupid, wasting my money, and some have even said “It’s only a dog”.  I honestly just have to feel sorry for those people.  They don’t know or understand the true unconditional love that a dog gives you.  No matter how crappy of a day you’ve had, walk right in the door to a dog that damn near knocks you down because they’re so excited to see you and still tell me you’re having a shitty day.

In all honesty, I don’t give a damn what people think of me or what I’m doing.   So to wrap up this wordy post, this in a nutshell sort of explains what I’ve been up there lately, and why I’ve had to neglect this blog.

Between daily 80 mile round trips to the vet for over 3 weeks and the other two jobs I’m working right now, I’m just trying to keep my head above the water.  
But…I’m ready to start focusing my attention towards things that make me happy….and that’s makeup, jewelry and blogging…so expect to hear more from me hopefully soon!

In the meantime, I will share a few pictures over Maggie’s treatment!  Also, if you want to follow Maggie’s journey, follow me on my Instagram!

Stay tuned for a special jewelry fundraiser to help raise money for Maggie’s cancer treatments also!



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